I’m not exactly sure if this is the place where I want to post some thoughts and feelings but its better than nothing. Just been kind of stressed recently and thinking about how things can just pile up on you if you let them. Really its important to acknowledge when something unfortunate happens or when you’re just caught in a situation that you don’t like and then move past it. The chance that something else that doesn’t sit well with you will happen again soon is pretty high. So, you better get over the first thing so you can tackle something new with all of your strength. Not only that but what if something really really good happens and you’re too focused on how everything is going wrong to notice it or appreciate it for what it is. I think that’s what I’m going to focus on this week. Trying to find some positives and moving past the bad and into the good.
How many times in our lives have we been faced with a challenge? Plenty I’m sure. If you fail you don’t keep focusing on it and worrying and fretting, etc. You have to pick up and face the next challenge with all your might. Try try again. Even if it seems like things are just “pouring” down. Maybe if you wouldn’t have focused so much on the last bad thing then it wouldn’t make the next bad thing as significant.
Who knows… maybe I’m just rambling and this is only going to make sense in my head. Makes me feel better when I’m facing a downpour though… What makes you feel better during a downpour?
Process :: During my pre-production I thought that I wanted to use a broad range of people in my video (including strangers) but I also noted that I wanted the general theme to be an understanding that everyone has flaws. During my production blog I talked about how I didn’t want to be present in the film and wanted my subjects to be the main focus. I also noted that I was going to give them the questions before I interviewed them. During post-production I decided that the footage I had was really usable and I liked the direction that I was being taken with my interviews. Basically the brainstorming and pre-production gave me my idea for the video and how I wanted it to be about everyone having a flaw. The production blog made me realize that I wanted to really focus on who the people I was interviewing were as people. I will note that my first interview I did not give my interviewee the question before and I liked her reaction to the question so much that I decided not to warn any of my interviewees. This worked out really well for me and developed a great base and tone for my video. The post-production really gave me a chance to sit down and realize what the tone was going to be and how I was going to put my video all together. It definitely reinforced that the video was about everyone having flaws and the video being about the unique personalities and flaws represented rather than strict interview style footage.
Feedback :: The feedback on my video was really good. I got some helpful criticism and also some positive feedback about parts of my final draft. I did like that I got a few different people who commented on the fact that they had trouble following which flaw was which. Once I explained that I wanted the bigger picture to be important, they agreed with me but suggested that I make that more clear. I appreciated this feedback because as the person that put it all together, I personally didn’t have any trouble following the comments so it was good to see someone else’s perspective. When I was giving my perspective to other people in the class, I noticed that we all really tried to help them improve their video and get across the idea they wanted to present. I think that throughout the semester we have been able to focus in on the important pieces of feedback that we want to give and help each other get better. I think that the best feedback anyone gave was specific. Specific feedback is the most helpful because it gives you something that you can really work on or a jumping-off point of sorts.
Self-reflection :: I learned that once I have my footage I like to work with what I have. I like to make things fit. I had a lot of shots that I wish were just a little bit longer at the end or cut off in different places but I made the footage work so that I could have the video that I wanted. And where I didn’t have the footage that I wanted, I had to tweak my idea of what I was going to make so that I could do the best with what I had. I also learned that I don’t necessarily work in any specific order. I definitely went through every interview that i had and decided what I liked and grouped different interview shots together, but after that I had no order. I just started editing where I felt most comfortable and where I knew that I had some good idea of what I wanted to accomplish. Whenever I got stuck on something I would just switch to another part and put my mind onto something different. I definitely think that this worked out for me because then when it got towards the end of the project i had worked on everything together and it flowed a lot better together than if I had just worked and finished one piece at a time.
Future :: I think that realistically I will only show it to friends and family who want to see it. For other places where it could be useful, this video or even a video similar to it could be used in classes about self-esteem. Obviously it is a bit of a stretch but I think the general concept about how everyone has flaws and everyone deals with it on a daily basis. I think the video could start conversation about how no one is perfect and that most people have deep issues that they think about every day. People have different ways to deal with their flaws. It could also just be a kind of comment about college students today and the issues that they go through. I think that some older people would have similar issues but maybe this just highlights that even young adults today aren’t too care free and have a lot that they worry about.
Final Question :: I think that in particular during this class I have really enjoyed getting to be creative. I know that I haven’t used that side of my brain in a while because I am a business major, so it is a nice change. I do think that I have noticed different ways that I kind of apply problem solving to both business and movies in this class. I try and look at the problem and work with what I have in front of me. I look through my evidence or footage and try to solve the problem. I think about it different ways and get other people’s opinions for view points that I hadn’t thought of before. In a way both processes are the same but with a different goal and one is much more artistic. I would also like to say that I think my process has changed since the beginning of the class. At first I wasn’t really sure what I was doing and I was pretty unsure about the work that I was putting together or how it was going to come across to the audience. After making a few videos and getting feedback from the class I think I have a better idea of how to make the video, the most efficient processes for me, and how I can better get across my ideas to the viewer. Obviously I would like to keep trying to make videos or something along those lines and get better at my own process. I enjoy making the videos and think it is a good way to relax or explore my beliefs like I did in this last video.
Here it is, ladies and gents. Enjoy.
Reflection :: I feel a little bit more at ease now that I have some of my footage but I am a little concerned that I might not have enough. I think I want maybe twice as many interviews as I actually have cause I know that my video won’t have B-roll really well. I think that if I have more interviews then I can just cut between the people fast enough that I don’t need the B-roll. I’ll see once I start editing. I learned that the interviews are only like 3 minutes long each and that people open up a lot more and a lot easier than I thought they would. One of my interviews didn’t go as well as I thought it would and I realized (tragically) that my B-roll may be impossible to collect. I don’t think I would have done it differently if I had to do it again. I’m going to stay the same if I end up doing more interviews.
What Do You Have :: Honestly, all of my video is usable. Except some of Matt’s video (he was not a good interviewee). Even the times when they are just sitting and waiting or setting up are good interviews. I have each interview broken down into a set-up, self introduction, naming of the flaw, describing it, and saying if it is a problem. They are all pretty consistent.
What Can You Say :: The material I have is good. I’m happy with how much down time and laughter and uncomfortable moments that I have. I can either put them all as full people chunks in a row, put them as themed part chunks, or umm I can also I don’t know I can also do somethin else. Not sure what yet.
Reshoots :: I don’t need to reshoot anything, I just need to get more interviews with different types of people. I’ll get some more friends, maybe family over break, etc. Same type of shots as before.
Evolution :: My project has mostly stayed the same as what I have wanted it to be. I think I got some more inspiration from a few online videos of how to cut everything together. I think I have also kind of given up the idea of B-roll, but other than that my basic concept and stuff have all stayed them same.
Timeline :: I showed my group and they say that I have good footage and they like the awkward and silent moments that I have. What I need to do is get more footage over the weekend. Then over break I need to decide what order I want everything to go and make my fine draft. That is basically all that I need to do is get a few more interviews and put it all together. Not really concerned about finishing at this point…. I think I’m on the right track.
I definitely still just need more interviews and related B-roll. I think I am going to interview my roommates tonight and some of our other friends tomorrow. What I’m starting to realize is that even though I thought that the flaws video would be a good amount of physical flaws and a good amount of personality, its been mostly personality. Like actually basically everyone has mentioned a personality flaw. Honestly I like that because it gets way more in depth into how people view themselves, but I was hoping for a little bit of a more shallow view of themselves as well. I guess i underestimated people’s self-esteem. HAH. I don’t think that there will be too many people to interview at home, so I really have to get all of my interviews done before I go home over break. Break is going to be my big fine draft edit time. Anyone want to be interviewed? Anyone have flaws?
Authorship :: As the filmmaker, I don’t want to be present in my film. I will conduct the interviews but I don’t want my voice to be heard in the film. I have to be very careful during my interviews not to talk while they are talking so that I can use the footage. I want to focus on the person that I am interviewing and their own perception of themselves rather than using my own opinion, voice, or questions. The basic theme is going to be that everyone has flaws and if I can show that I think it would be enhanced by not having my voice in there. Also I think that by focusing on the person rather than the environment (simple backgrounds) would get the idea across better too.
Content :: I don’t think that the audience will need any background information. I am going to try and get my interviewees to mention something like “Flaws? Well, my biggest flaw…” etc so that the audience will know what they are talking about at the beginning. Either that or I can put text at the beginning saying something like “These people have flaws” and ending with something like “But so does everyone else” or I can just have the dialogue that my interviewees say introduce the final idea that everyone does. Depends on the footage that I get during filming. But right now I know that I want to try and get them to say something along those lines. I am going to ask the person to think about their flaw before I interview them so that they will have thought through it and have at least something to say. I also want to have a few questions that I don’t send them so that I get responses on the spot. I am going to ask them what their flaw is, how it affects their life, how they manage it, how they discovered it, how they think other people see them because of it, etc. I think I want a few more questions to send them. But I will also run the interview based on their answers. I am also considering doing some blind interviews where the person does not know the topic that I am going to ask them about so that I get initial responses about their flaws and not information that they have already thought through.
Shots :: I need the following shots – Up-close shots of faces and hands, interview shots, and then applicable B-roll depending on their flaw. I want the following shots – Lots and lots of different people to flash at the beginning, people tripping, people interacting, people “judging” other people maybe (maybe not a good idea.. not sure yet), and I really hope that these shots will show people as they are. The shots of the individual people should be close up shots of people or their body parts (hands, feet, shoulders, etc). The interviewing should be about half of their bodies and maybe panning from one side to the other while they talk. All of the close-up shots should be about the same to show the unity of people and yeah.
Anxieties and Obstacles :: My main anxiety is that people won’t really be open to talking about their flaws. I know that it is kind of a touchy subject and that people get really self-conscious when you ask them to talk about themselves. Even if it is something good about themselves, people are hesitant to talk so getting them to talk about bad things will be even harder. I am also nervous about the execution of the shots. I wasn’t very good at getting B-roll last time and I want to improve that in this video. I think that since I wasn’t very good at it before, I should probably start early and get a lot of different shots so that I can use the right B-roll when it comes time to edit. More options means better chances of having the right shots. Also with the people not wanting to talk thing, I think I may have to interview people that I know because they will probably be more willing to talk to me. Strangers aren’t going to open up like I want them to. Ready. Set. Film.